Jul 17, 2019

Adulting II



A friend suggested to me that this should be a permanent post on my IG but I choose to put this on my blog instead.. 

When you finally found a person whose feelings matters above all else...
And it doesn't matter if you'll ever hear
 'I LOVE YOU' in return... 
You've truly found your 'Kryptonite' 

Have courage to move forward... 
And let what's meant for you find you 😊

Point no 3.
"You dont force love" 

Jul 10, 2019

Tabin Wildlife Resort: 28-30 June 2019

Bismillah...

Audits will forever be taxing. Especially when the requirements are FOREVER impossible to achieve. I always wonder why can't those who created them think of things that are more practical and useful rather than just documents that prove you did your work. Some people are very good at creating presentable documentations while in reality suck at doing their job. And logically, those who focuses on their work will not have the time to beautify their documents because they are too busy completing and perfecting their duty... I'll score people who manage to fill 3 redundant documents ZERO if I'm the auditor LOL

Anyway, this trip was not purposely planned post audit. We were lucky that the auditors decided to come before the trip so most of us were working our ass off preparing for the audit for weeks and didn't have time to check on the trip prior to going. I was lucky to have been audited last year. And since the checklist was the same, so I didn't have to prepare much; not from scratch that is. But I didn't get perfect score either. Like I said, it's FOREVER IMPOSSIBLE!

Okay back to the trip. I didn't know much when I decided too sign up LOL I just thought it sounds fun so why not. Nothing much can be found in Google either. The reviews in TripAdvisor were mostly a perfect 5 star so I thought this will definitely be something that I will enjoy.


I opted to go to LD by bus. The flight ticket fare was actually affordable; ~RM 299. By bus, it was RM 109 return ticket. Saved RM 190 there! makes you feel you've made a smart decision hahaha

 Plus, I thought the schedule was convenient. The bus departed at around 8.30 pm from KK and arrived around 4.00 am the next morning. The journey was comfortable and I would say the driver had a good taste of music! I can't sleep because I didn't want to miss any song in the playlist hahaha.
And also, it was not like the bus ride that makes your body feel sore when you arrive.



The bus did several stops: once for toilet break at a petrol station, once for a half an hour stop for meal and the rest were for the drivers to smoke at the side of the road LOL
I thought that was okay and that actually ensures safety. The drivers need their breaks. I myself will lose my concentration if the drive is too long. It must be even harder to concentrate at night.

The longest break was somewhere in Telupid. One thing that I thought was unique was the place had different toilets for 'different business' LOL 
The door was labeled with 'Buang air besar' and 'Buang air kecil'
None of them were vacant when I got there so I was very curious of what was the difference between the two. When someone finally got out of the 'Buang air kecil room', we peeked to see how is it inside and saw there was no toilet bowl. Just a small hole on the floor where liquid will drain through.

It was raining when we reached LD. We were lucky to get the last 2 rooms at Fajar Hotel. The Deluxe room cost us RM 110 per room. The room was spacious and had all the basic amenities. The restaurant next to it served good food too!



Our meeting point with the rest of the group was at the airport where the tour operator office is located. There, we were required to fill in a form which was for the permit and insurance. 
And later we were brought to a restaurant for lunch. That was when we start to suspect that it was going to be a somewhat luxurious getaway because the restaurant was a very decent type and the food was unexpectedly a lot!

Tabin was about an hour and a half drive from town. Nothing much to see on the way there. Just palm oil plantations... Too me, it was such a sore sight huhuhu Kesian all the wildlife that have lost their homes because of that... SOBS




Our next surprise was our room! hahaha
Well, it's not uncommon to pay RM500-ish in Sabah for outdoor activities. And usually the accommodation will either be dorm type with shared bathrooms and toilets or if it's the single room type, it will be very very basic like the walls won't even be painted type of room hahaha

But this one is TOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NK and I were screaming with joy and we were like kids moving around the room checking what else is available. The room is air conditioned, towels provided and changed daily and it has hot shower!!!

And next... THE FOOOOODDDD.....


During the briefing we were given this piece of paper that has the schedule as well as rules and regulations on it. We were like, "Makan 5 kali sehari???"

It was really hard to believe until it really happen.. So the above is how a typical meal looks like there in Tabin. This was our dinner on the 2nd night and trust me the food was delicious!!!!!

 The 5 meals were,
Light breakfast
Breakfast
Lunch
Afternoon tea time
Dinner

Not your typical jungle getaway, NO!


The first activity was going to the mud volcano. We used this truck and then had to walk around 700m to the mud volcano. Not tiring at all hahahaha



The area is not that big and there was only one puddle that continuously produce small bubbles (puddle ka namanya tu hahaha)
Most of the area were dried and cracked. AF mistakenly stepped on a soft spot and got trapped there for several minutes. His senior went for the rescue while the rest of us played with mud LOL



I never like to dirty myself.. That's one of the reason why I don't enjoy gardening because I dislike having dirt stuck inside my nails..
So when we were there, I was being very careful and made sure that the mud was evenly spread on my face ONLY and not to be in contact with any surface of my shawl or my other clothing LOL
But then PE noticed that I was too clean and then suddenly I became the victim of a mud attack.

They were throwing mud as if it was snow! Luckily the mud was soft enough not to cause concussion when it hits the head hahaha

That night we went for our first night Safari. I missed the Leopard Cat that night because it already ran into the bushes when I turned to look. 
But the best part of that night was the cloudless starry sky!
The only light pollution was from the truck's headlights and also the guide's spotlight so it was very beautiful...
There were so many fireflies flying around the trees and their blinking lights add to the beauty


The second day was even more relaxing. We had a short morning walk after light breakfast and when for a dip at the waterfall after the 'real' breakfast.

I decided to just sit at the bank and silently take in the moment. Well, it was not silent at all because the rest were laughing and screaming in the water lol

We were at the waterfall until it was about lunchtime and after that we were free to have our own activities. Some of us went to play cards, some doze off the whole afternoon. Me, I had a short nap and spent most of the afternoon reading my book.

The picture above was taken when we were waiting for the sun to set and then start with our second night safari. It was a long wait until we finally found an animal which was a Leopard cat strutting nonchalantly on the gravel road as if our presence was nothing to him. One brave Leopard cat and such valor is to be honoured because his bravery gave us the chance to appreciate this wildlife up close!


It was free and easy on our last day.
We were actually awakened by the noise of a group of monkeys looking for food outside. 
We went to the restaurant to check on the light breakfast and later played chess at this balcony


As a wrap, we did this mud hand print cert!
I think this one is very unique.

I would say yes if I have the chance to go again.
Such a relaxing excursion (^^)



Jul 4, 2019

Recipe: Ayam Goreng Korea

Bismillah...

My niece and nephew usually look forward to my cooking because they sometimes get bored of their parents' cooking. And I love to try new recipes so they're very excited because of that too. My older brother is also a good cook, you see. Better than his wife, in fact. I can't beat his chicken curry haha

But usually I'll be too tired from driving when I reached Labuan and will refuse to cook for dinner. I won't have enough time to cook for breakfast and lunch the next day either.

I manage to try this one on the last day of Ramadhan. We were driving around to find food for break fast and all our favourite restaurants were closed and none of the food sold in the bazaar appealed to me. Looked at my niece and said, "Let's cook then.. Lets find a simple recipe..". We Googled for 'Ayam Goreng Korea' and I decided to try the one from this blog because it's the simplest hahaha

I didn't follow the fried chicken part because I already have my own way of making tasty fried chicken.. Yah! Yakin di situ hahaha



I usually use garlic flavoured flour to marinate the chicken. Any brand will do but I prefer those that doesn't need egg for coating. For this recipe, I marinated the chicken with black pepper for a few minutes before adding in flour. I added some water so the texture of the marinate is not that pasty. Leave it for a few hours before frying.


Some people will fry the chicken twice to get the crispy finish. But I was too lazy to do that hahaha


For the sauce,
1. Garlic; diced
2. Honey
3. Sugar
4. Home made cili boh
5. Tomato sauce and chili sauce (2:1 ratio)
6. Sesame seeds

It's really easy.. Saute the garlic, and then add all the ingredients in and stir. When it's already evenly mixed and starts to bubble, that's when you put in the chicken. Mix them and ensure all the chicken are fully covered with the sauce.

Sprinkle the sesame seeds and then it's done!


This is very easy. I think I can put this one in my daily bekal to work list hahaha

Jun 28, 2019

Recipe: Sotong Goreng Telur Masin

Bismillah...

Few weeks ago, smarty flat ass pointed out to me that it seems like my life is not balanced because I don't know many people in my field LOL. I've been thinking how can not knowing many people in my field be an indication of unbalanced life. I have lots of friends from many walks of life and they taught me things outside of my expertise. One that fascinated me most is food technology LOL

It is very important to have life outside work or else we will be living to work instead of working to live. These days work has been undeniably demanding and I have a long list of things and projects until the end of the year. I can't even find time for travel! It can be depressing when I start to realize I have no long holiday to look forward to in the coming months but I'm trying to enjoy my free time as much as possible while trying to complete all these tasks. And that includes cooking!

I tried this one during Ramadhan. Yup! During the long Keamatan holiday hehe I was craving but was too lazy to break fast outside as I hate to rush for prayers after that. So, I decided to try this myself and was surprised that the recipe is actually easy peasy!

Ingredients:

1. Squid
2. All purpose flour
3. Black pepper powder
4. Salted Eggs
5. Butter
6. Chilies.. (I used Thai chili since cili padi is too hot for me)
7. Curry leaves



1. First, wash and cut your squids... It was the HUGE squid season. I really hate cleaning them because you'll find those things they've eaten inside their bodies. I screamed in horror when I saw dead anchovies and shrimps that evening hahaha


2. Prepare the other ingredients.. Boil the salted eggs. Once cooked, cool it off and take out the yolks. I also took out some white parts to make it colourful lol. Then, cut the chilies. I picked both red and green chilies to make it colourful hahaha



3. Mix the all purpose flour with black pepper powder. The above pic was before I mix them together.

4. I dipped the squids into beaten eggs before coating them with the flour



5. Fry the squids in preheated oil until they become brownish like in the picture. Do not fry HUGE squids for too long because it will become hard. Use your womanly instinct to guess when it is about right to remove them from the frying pan hahaha Cool them off for a while before we work on the dressing

6. Now the salted egg dressing. Melt the butter inside a frying pan. When it starts to bubble, put in the chilies and the salted egg yolks. Mix them evenly and finally put in the curry leaves. When the curry leaves start to become dry, that's when you put in the fried squids in and stir them until it becomes a uniformed mix.



TADAAAAA!
So that's how it will look like. This was my first attempt. I didn't cool the fried squid enough before I made the dressing so the flour came off a little bit. My cousin requested this again a few days later so I improvised. My family loved it so yeah this is a delicious and easy recipe to try (^^)

Maybe I should schedule trying a new recipe at least once a month hurmmmm......

Jun 22, 2019

6 Things I Learned From Losing Her...

Bismillah

This is something I posted in FB... Reposting it here

Among our first picture together (^^)


Those who knew me after 2013 might not know that our very first Eurotrip ended with one of the greatest test in my life. On my last day in Amsterdam, a relative sent a message via FB telling me that my cousin perished in a car accident. The incident was on the news, friends who saw the news recognized that was my cousin because of how frequently she used to appear in my FB posts those days. None of my family could be contacted; they were busy arranging to transport her remains back to Labuan. None of my family member had Whatsapp back then, so I sent a short sms to my mom telling her that I already knew and that I've changed my flight.

It's been six years.. I might not talk or post about it as much as I did in the past, but Nuyui still and will always remain close in our hearts. So here goes 6 things I learned from losing her...

"Allah will not take something without replacing it with something better"

It was 7 Syaaban when she left us.. It was the saddest Ramadhan and reality hit me hard on the 1st Syawal because before that her demise actually didn't feel real to me because I arrived after she was already laid to rest. It only felt real when I first saw the tomb stone with her name written on it that day.

It was the saddest Syaaban, Ramadhan and Syawal. With one less family member, it will no longer be the same from then on. But that was also the year when my family was given the chance to host iftars, congregational prayers and tadarus with the donations we received. In Islam, this is considered one of the biggest reward in the month of Ramadhan. We were in deep grief. Honestly, at that time I only saw those events as a way to make dua for her. But to think of it, it was 'something' for us from Allah too. To date, we never get to host them as much as we did that year.

"Allah will not burden any soul more than he can bear"

I appeared strong in front of my family because I already cried my heart out for 11 hours from Europe to KL. The remaining 2.5 hours to Labuan was used to make sure that I don't look miserable when I arrive. But Sabr (being patient) is hardwork. Strength come and go. And allowing yourself to grief, I found, really helped.

Sabr and strength was something I prayed and worked hard for to get through my remorse. It was only 3 weeks since I hugged her at the airport to send her off for her study, a few hours since I liked her last IG post when I heard about the accident. I was shocked. Occasionally questioning WHY. And can't stop myself from crying whenever I was alone.

Trust me, Allah will one day lift that heavy burden from our hearts when we ask and work for it. I can't recall when I finally got out of it. But with more and more blessings in disguise revealed after that, the ordeal felt lighter and lighter and I finally felt my redha (acceptance) became wholehearted.

"Be kind and kindness will come back to you"

Nuyui was friendly, always cheerful and kind. Always the saviour of our niece and nephew whenever I was outraged by their monkey business. She worked part-time at a grocery store near her house after SPM. She cycled to work every morning carrying a drawstring bag on her back which was full of small change. The owner trusted her so much that she can count them at home after work.

During the kenduri there were quite a number of unfamiliar faces. Later we learned that they were her customers. When they heard the news on TV, they recognized it was the nice cashier girl who already stopped working to further her study. They came to offer condolences and deliver their sadaqah.

And I also learned that at school, she loved to share her food and her things with her friends especially those who came from poor families. Whenever she asked me to help her buy reference books in KK, it was always two copies. She would give me money to pay for her friend's. Later I found out, the money was for her to buy her book.. But she used it to get for a good friend of hers who can't afford any...

The number of people who came to offer their condolences was unexpected. I was speechless to find that some of them remembered her from a very brief meeting and a simple act of kindness that she offered. The 18 year old girl showed me that kindness does come back to its giver; even after we're gone. Let us all try to be remembered as good...

"When it comes to love, make no room for regrets"

I'm grateful that even when I was the last to know, the one who didn't get to see her before she was buried, I was actually left with no regret. Our family is very small, we are very close and our bond is very strong. She was 'just a cousin' by blood but we were more like sisters. I start baby sitting her as early as when she turned 3 months, so you can imagine how close we were.

Some people would probably think that it would be better if we don't get too attached to someone so that it will be easier to let go when it's their time to go. I beg to differ.

When it comes to love, especially family love, I think we should love without reservation and express it to our fullest capability. Tomorrow is not promised, and while we can we should just go all out. When it's time to say good bye, we wont wish to turn back time and ask for a chance to do better. Afterall, mati itu sememangnya pasti...

"Live with purpose.."

Nuyui had a lot of dreams. She watched cooking tv shows to prepare herself to compete in MasterChef one day. She wanted to show the world Islam do not limit women's role but in fact empowers them. And she believed in hard work.

I remember one time she asked me to switch the radio station when this famous local song (not to be named) was played. I asked why? This is a nice local song.. She replied,

"Nurul nda suka lagu ni. Ini lagu orang malas. Kalau susah, kena la berusaha. Nda suka lagu ni. Kalau orang dengar mesti terikut ikut..."

I burst into laughter upon hearing that but she maintained a straight face so I guessed she really did not like that song so much.

She was studying to become a doctor (matriculation course) when she lost her life in that accident.. Before she decided on the course, she asked me why I chose to become a Pharmacist. I admitted that initially I wanted to learn language but I was forced to choose a science course instead. I decided that if I were to do a science course I want something of direct service for the people. She took some time to think, and later decided that she wanted the same too.

After that, I had to listen to all of her dreams, of what she want to achieve as a doctor. I was already shrouded by my adulthood logic and I thought let her dream all she want and find out that later she might have to let them go.

Now that she's gone, my perspective changed... She didn't let her dreams go.. She was not given the time to achieve them.. Then I started asking myself...

What were my dreams?
What happened to them?
Is it true that I can't achieve them with the time I'm given?

'Dreams' can be anything.. Dream destination.. Dream car.. Dream husband even.. But certain 'dreams' are actually life purpose.. Maybe it was her way of telling me I should start working on mine when she's gone....

"Face your fears and have trust in Allah"

I love to travel; obviously... However, it has become one of my biggest fear since 2013. I'm always afraid to leave my family behind every single time. I almost resolve to stop after our trip to NZ and Tasmania because I get so anxious before leaving.

Then I thought it was not right.. Even if I stayed put, I can't prevent bad things from happening. Afterall, one of the pillars of faith is to believe Predestination and Decree. If I have chosen to stop, it's as if I didn't grasp one of the wisdom from the test of losing Nuyui... Which is to have trust in Him..

Whatever that is we feared, we should try to face it, trust in Allah to help us break through it...

Thank you for reading this to the end..
To those who have just lost their loved ones, I understand the grieve and I pray may you get through it one day.. It was hard for me and it took time.. And that's why it took me 6 years to write this...
Al Fatihah for our dearest Nurul Maizura...


Our last holiday together...