Indah~

"Bila engkau memandang segalanya dari TuhanMu, yang menciptakan segalanya, yang menimpakan ujian, yang menjadikan sakit hatimu, yang membuatkan keinginanmu terhalang, serta menyusahkan hidupmu, pasti akan damailah hatimu, kerana masakan Allah sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia. Bukan Allah tidak tahu deritanya hidupmu, retaknya hatimu, tapi mungkin itulah yang DIA mahukan, kerana DIA tahu hati yang sebeginilah yang selalunya lebih lunak dan mudah untuk dekat dan akrab denganNya."

Strange yet meaningful~

This odd experience actually happened right after my Honda City test drive..

I stepped out of my dream car with my dreamy eyes... My thoughts was else where... I spotted mom and safiah standing next to a guy holding a broom.. Clad in a blue t-shirt, I instantly know that the guy is a cleaner in the building...

"Assalamualaikum.." mencelah dengan seberapa sopan yang boleh~

"Waalaikumsalam" they replied~

Mom introduced me to the guy as her daughter studying pharmacy in IIUM Kuantan Campus and told him I'll be back for my semester soon.. Suddenly his eyes were fixed on me and said something that I'd never expected..

"Aku cukup bangga jumpa orang terpelajar... Aku harap sangat jadi macam kau, dang. Tapi apa boleh buat aku dilahirkan dalam keluarga susah. 10 adik beradik, tiada seorang pon yang sekolah. Tengoklah ni. Bawak penyapu saja... Aku ada amanah untuk kau.. Skarang kau beruntung dilahirkan dalam keluarga senang dan dianugerahkan otak yang pandai dan boleh belajar jauh.. Guna peluang yang ada tu.. Belajar rajin rajin.. Ramai yang mau jadi macam kamu dang tapi apa bole buat, nada peluang. Bersyukurlah.. Kalau aku lahir di tempat kau mesti aku yang pergi belajar jauh.. Kalau kau lahir di tempat aku mesti kau yang pegang penyapu ni.. Bersyukur lah dang.. Ingat amanah ku tu"

Woho!!! I was surprised but tried to look calm... I didn't know how to response but finally said.. "InshaAllah.. Terima kasih, bang" eventhough I think that was quite lame~


Hurm.. How would you feel if you were in my shoes?? Do you think I made the right response???

Occasionally I do think things like"what if I was born to be someone else? would it be better? Or would it be worse".. But this time I was given a full blow at point blank.. Someone confessed he wanted to be in my place.. How lucky I am in his eyes.. MashaAllah~

Yeah... I might not be the luckiest person on earth but I am luckier than many other people in this world.. I have so0o0 many things to be grateful of... WE are luckier than many other people in this world~

When I first came to this world.. I'm perfectly healthy with all my limbs and organs functioning well to this day

I'm lucky to be born in a Muslim family~ Although mine was not the kind with strong Islamic base but we are improving day by day.. Alhamdulillah~

I think I'm also lucky to have been given strength to face adversities and to be reminded of Him everytime I forget.. Some people are left astray till their last breath~

HUrm.. His words are still mind boggling~ He made me realized how I'm taking a lot of good things in my life for granted.. Hopefully his "amanah" could be some sort of booster for me to improve my pointer figure =)

May his life be better each day~ I'm really thankful to have met someone like you =)

by the way.. it's my mom who told me to share this story~ hehe

Terbuka sudah pintu hatiku~

Hi...

I'm Haziah Salleh

And I am a SHOPAHOLIC

I found no reason to save until about a year ago.. I thought it was time to save some money because I was about to start my own family...

I saved around 1k ++ in a few months... Good motivation but it all shattered when the relationship ended at the end of 2008..

The compulsive shopping habit relapsed... Out of agony, I finished the money I saved in one day~

With no regrets at all...

But NOW I already found another reason to save money...

The spirit rush through my veins and through my spine...

I'm love-strucked.. And I'm very sure of this...

Yes... For you I will..

Honda city~

Caffeine~Tongkat Ali~Kacip Fatimah

EEEE... I don't know whether I'm ridiculously outraged or what but seriusly geram sangat with most local coffee products' advertisements yang supplemented with tongkat ali and kacip fatimah.. They are PERVERTS!!



You can hear dialoges like



"Abang mari masuk bilik~"



or like



"Saya mau power.." making his wish in front of a green genie...



What spark this?? well two years ago, when the 1st advertisement of that sort was broadcast, I heard one of my primary two student said the dialogue and urgh It sickened me... And these days they are more of them!!!






I don't know whether that's all there is in the mentality of our people.. Or is it something the products want to instill.. It's very worrisome when you hear something like "abang mari masuk bilik" from the mouth of a small onocent kid.. he's only repeating a sentence from an advertisment~ They are well-publicised.. huhu There are so many other health benefits that can be emphasized in coffee.. Eeee~

Tazkirah pagi tadi~

Mom always watch the early morning motivational program in TV3.. She would put it to maximum volume so that the whole house could hear it.. Even if you're still covered in your blanket.. Sometimes I could get the points even when my eyes is closed because the volume is so loud... This morning's tazkirah got my attention.. Lebey kurang begini la~

Orang kafir sangat takut dengan Al-Quran kerana kebenaran yang ada di dalam nya.. Orientalis barat pernah berbincang mengenainya..

Orang Islam itu kuat kerana mereka ada Al-Quran

Jangan risau.. Mereka tidak membacanya...

Tapi bagaimana kalau mereka membacanya???

Jangan risau.. Mereka tidak memahami isinya...

Bagaimana kalau mereka memahami isinya???

Jangan risau.. Mereka tidak beramal dengannya

Bagaimana kalau mereka beramal dengannya???

Jangan risau.. Mereka tidak istiqomah dalam melakukannya...

Bagaimana kalau mereka istiqomah???

Jangan risau.. Pasti ada mereka yang tidak ikhlas~


So true~

I wanna be a supergirl!! N then superwoman!!!!

Hurm.. Don't you think there are just to0 many people getting married or engaged these days...???

Jealous?? A little bit.. Huhu

Haha well, I should've been one of them but it seem that my fate twisted haha Hurm guess Allah has better plans for me, right??

Anyway. It's not about my jealosy and envy that I want to talk about...

Well, I've been observing my aunt, who's a wife, a mother, an employee, still a daughter to her parents and most importantly a servant to Allah.. So many roles she has to play at the same time.. And

OH MY GOD!!! IT'S TIRING!!!!

Well, I didn't really get the clear picture when you have multiple roles to play as a woman with a husband, who'll be the person that you could you hold on to at hard times.. Why?? Because mom is a single mother which means her life is harder.. So I've always imagined, married women live better life than do single mothers and also they have lesser burdens.. But I think my perception has gone astray all this while hehe

What I saw during my observation...

She has to do the hundreds or maybe even thousands chores.. She has to cook...She has to take care of her baby, maicaya... She has to be there for her husband, my uncle.. She has to give commitments to work.. She has to think of the academic performance of her other children.. and so many more.. WOW!!!!

ONLY A SUPERWOMAN CAN DO THAT!!!!

Well, I manage my day pretty well in the hostel.. And when it comes to home making at home, I think I'm satisfied with how I handled stuff.. I thought that was enough to put me as someone who's prepared to be a wife and a mother until I saw my aunt..

Yeah I managed my chores well.. Washed MY clothes, prepared MY food, tidied MY room.. Everything was simply mine.. Later, in the future.. When I'm married.. It would be MY HUSBAND and MINE.. A few years later, it would be MY HUSBAND, KIDS and MINE~ WOW!!! Could I manage that??? My laundry would be 5 or 6 or maybe 10 folds than the one I have when there was only ME alone

And for the home making.. Yeah I manage them well too.. But.. that is during the HOLIDAYS.. Later.. I'll be working and have to maintain my own house.. Not only a cubicle that I call MY compartment which I successfully maintain during my semester.. It would be a house.. A BIG one if I'm rich enough hahaha..

If my jodoh is someone who likes to help me out in doing chores then I'll be lucky.. Kalo dapat yang pemalas.. Tidor jak kerjanya... Or tau lepak ngan member jak.. Then I'm DONE!!!!!!!

Then again.. I have the stamina to hike and row for hours so by right I should have the stamina?? WRONG!!! I don't hike and row in daily basis.. Later, all those wife, employee and mom thingy will be revolving in my life everyday.. It's a must-do routine!!!!!! Aiyo0o0o0!!!!

I'm honestly not ready for that!!! I'm no supergirl.. I'm no superwoman.. But I must practice to be one...

Have at least 2 years to prepare...

Must learn to manage my time better...

Must improve my cooking...

Must learn to accept other's flaws... because you are going to live with your husband's flaws for the rest of your life.. Some flaws just can't be repaired you see..

Willing to face ups and downs with my hubby...

Must learn to put up smiles even at hard times...

Penuh la blog ni kalo mo list suma skali hehe :p itu baru yang duniawi, kalo yang ukhrawi, sampai tahun depan pon nda habis taip heee :p

So that's it... Now, I see that marriage is more than uniting two hearts so that both male and female are lawfully together for the rest of their life... Love is just one part of it.. And the rest of marriage is about responsibilities, duties, sacrifices and many more.. NOw after about 7 months, I finally see why is it not for me yet.. Simple.. Because I'm not ready :)

Now what I'm going to do is study hard first so that bila sudah kerja nanti nda "huh?? Xtau" bila orang tanya hehe I'm going to be a superwoman one day, just let me practice first hehe and then I'll find my SUPERMAN \(^^)/