My cousin's wedding~ (^^)v

5th and 6th June 2009~



Well, I've been putting status like


"ugh.. inferior nya aku"

"bila la aku mau kawen?",

"I'm showered with questions about marriage" etc...



in my facebook and YM.. So here I reveal to you the face of the culprit who's behind all the misery~

This is my beloved cousin whom I had spent my childhood with.. His marriage actually marks the commence of my quest to finding my own hubby haha..

Kak Pauziah, his newly wedded wife, is actually a Bugis so the wedding ceremony was somewhat unique to us the Kedayans.. hehe.. Em.. The akad nikah was done on Friday night which was quite awkward.. Kesian sangat to my beloved cousin because he'd to repeat the lafaz thrice.. Pijah and I was oddly nervous haha and we were giving "CAIYOK CAIYOK! " signals to Buyung who was already in front of the imam.. Very supportive kan?? The above is the picture after akad nikah.. Alhamdulillah.. lepas jugak~




On Saturday, the bridegroom's convoy head off to the bride's house approximately at 11 am.. The journey was about an hour.. Surprisingly, in Bugis custom, the wedding ceremony during the day was not so happening.. There were only a small number of guests too..

The main event was actually during the night.. Both the newly weds bersanding from lepas maghrib till midnight.. Ada 3 baju semuanya. 1st one, they were clad in a traditional costume of Bugis.. Rasa cam funny jak because as you can see, he looks like as if he's in a baju kurung yang blink2.. hehe and that head-piece.. hehe macam pawang~ hish jahat lak hehe anyway, I think it's interesting to see new things.. Hurm that night, I ran out of baju kurung so casual wear jak la hehe

This is the picture of the whole family.. But my dad, umie n my brother is not in the picture. Dorang terlampau penat so nda dapat datang...

So skang sapa mau kawen sama ni budak??? hahahaha xda la.. hurm.. this is my dress.. pelik kan?? hehe but I love it...

Finally, may both Buyung and Kak Pauziah live happily as husband and wife.. And I hope Buyung will still blanja gg and pijah after this hehe

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My dream + the girl with eggs...

Do you ever have something that you want so badly that you pray so intensely, so strongly every day???

And that something is nothing that you can work to have it.. You can't do anything about it other than just pray and pray and pray....

And then the thing you want just seem to never come your way.. So you just wait and wait and wait....

I do..

I have one wish that I don't know where it is heading this time around... A dream in which only Allah can decide whether I can have it or not~

Sometimes.. I lose patience.. At times the waiting seem to be distressing and heart breaking.. Until I found this sweet story... Now I feel embarassed for losing my patience...

The story is short and simple..

It's about a little girl whose imagination and curiosity are at their peaks.. Her family owned a farm and she love to wander around and discover new things there.. So one day she found some chicken eggs laid in the barn..

She asked her mother "What are these??"

"These are chicken eggs my dear. These are where the chicks are going to hatch from.. So when the time comes, the cute chicks will come out of these eggs"

The little girl was intrigued by the new information.. From there onwards, she went to visit the eggs every day and wait for the eggs to hatch... She waited and waited and waited.. One day, she got tired of waiting...

She thought "Why is it so hard for the chicks to come out..? I think I'll just help them out by cracking the shells"

She was about to crack the eggs when her mother called out from behind

"what are you doing dear?"

"I'm trying to help the chicks out from the eggs.." she replied in her utmost innocent voice..

Then her mother explained with a smile..

"My dear, you have to be patient. For the chicks to come out, we will have to wait until they are ready to hatch. Not by smashing them..."

What can you get from this simple story?? Well, I'll tell you my perspective in relation to my prayer-dependent dream...

What will happen if the girl smash the eggs??? Without doubt, she won't have the chance to see the chicks at all.. Only the sticky yolk and the transparent part (Don't know what people call them~ haha) would come out.

Thus... In my case.. I'll have to be patient and not do anything irrational to haste things up.. In my case.. I've to be persistent in my prayer.. And then wait... Allah knows better than me~ When the time is right.. I will see and enjoy the fruit of my persistence and patience.. Maybe, He'll give me more than what I've just wished and prayed for.. InshaAllah~ When the time is right, He'll grant me what I asked Him.. And I'm sure it'll be just nice~ and blissful

And I think this does not only apply to this one particular dream of mine only.. But in everything.. Including in search for a soul-mate.. haha yeah mention that because I'm currently pressured by questions about marriage.. hehehe

"Only those who are patient will receive their reward in full without reckoning" Az-Zumar:10

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Just wanna let it out~

Recently I seem to be facing with a lot of difficult people with intolerable attitudes that render my soul bludgeoned and got me to my breaking points and thus result in tears falling from this big round eyes of mine uhuh~

I accept the reality that they are not perfect since neither do I but it seems that how on earth can these people have this great ability to affect my life in a negative way so0o0o0 much???

I won't specifically mention who and what these people did but I will explain how their attitude affect me and my point of view....

Ok person #1...

This person is a person that you've forgave for whatever this person had done to you..

But suddenly when you've already call it a truce and chose to move on and enjoy whatever life has to offer, the person suddenly gave you this weird cold shoulder and silent treatment as if you'd done some big sin towards the person...

Is it right to treat someone that you've terribly deceived and had forgiven you like that??

That once you've got her to say "you're forgiven" so then you can just become a jerk again...?

That is so0o0o0 wrong man!!!! She might be initially earnest in forgiving you but she's not an angel who could just say "it's okay" to be disrespected after forgiving..

I really think something is wrong with this person and this person surely need some time to recover from such insanity... Lets pray together

~may this person be in the guidance of Allah at all times~

and also pray so that

I'll be in a calm state to face such difficult attitude..

Everybody have their limits and I hope this one doesn't go beyond mine... I hope to handle it wisely~ There are so many things to consider~~ so0o0 many~~


person #2..

This type is actually not so rare.. I've been meeting this kind for so many times.. I got into my nerve recently and this means that this person have reached my boiling point.. Congratulation...
How do I say this.. Well.. To describe it in a concise manner, I say when this person is not in the mood, this person radiates negative energy and affect the moods of others around him or her from the shiny bright mood to cloudy stormy mood just by putting the gloomy, depressed, murky face.. Urgh~

Yeah.. the face immediately tells the people around you that you're not in the mood but DO YOU KNOW that you are making people think

"AKU KE YANG SALAH???"
And do you know that it's not fun to be around with such a moody people when you did nothing wrong to them~

Can you please keep away those gloomy murky face for the sake of other people's feeling..
Or could you just like, when you're moody, be away from all of the happy people.. because gloomy murky face cancel happy atmosphere...

Don't expect everybody to understand your moody expression because
I honestly CAN'T...

Okay.. those are the two difficult attitudes that disturbed my life a bit... I know they are not perfect and I am trying to take this positively by adjusting my lense every now and then.. But keeping it inside can be tough and agonizing.. I need to let it out... Thanks for reading and thanks for understanding~ a favourite song of mine :)

Sedihku sakitku ku terima

Ku rela ku pasrah jalanku
Ini suratan aku dicoba

Demi rahmat-Mu ku memohon

Yaa Allah ridhoi ketulusan hati

Yaa Allah beri aku ketabahan

Yaa Allah aku sanggup berkorban

Demi rahmat-Mu Yaa Allah

Di dunia yang sarat godaan

Ku mohon dosaku ampunkan

Ingin bahagia, Dunia akhirat

Turunkan rahmat-Mu untukku

Ada macam marshanda x?? hahaha ok just wanna loosen up a little bit lepas an emo post

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