1st November 2008 was one of the most dreadful day in my life... The guy I loved, the guy I trusted betrayed me... He betrayed me for so long but I was too blind to see... Thank you Allah for showing me the truth...
I want to put eveything behind me.. I don't want to remember all the bad things he did to me.. I only want to remmeber the part where he had made me happy.. I only want to remember the part where we struggled together going through our greatest ordeal ever, the motocycle accident...
What made him change? I dont know... He just totally change... I remember the last time I saw him being himself. Exactly a year after the accident, 2 Decemcer 2007.. I was gloomy that day.. I was not sure why.. I had an instinct something bad was about to happen... He noticed my perculiar mood. I've always been happy and talkative but that day it was just so different.. I was waiting for the bus to Kuantan... Before I boarded the bus, he look at me in the eye and said
"saye sayang awk" 3 times...
I look him rode his motorcycle home.. That was the last time I saw MY zul... The rest of it were memories that I rather erased...
Now I'm alone.. Im single.. I'm going to move forward.. I want to remember him the way I want.. I loved him once for who he was... I pray to Allah may he realize his mistakes.. May he be himself again.. May he be happy with what he had chosen... :)
In a way I'm so grateful.. No more lies.. No more cries.. All my questions are already answered.. Thank you Allah... Thank you for not making me the one who destroy this precious relationship :)
Thank you mom.... Thank you friends.... Thank you mak zul for the suports... I needed it and I appreciate it so much.. I gained my strength.. I did my best for him... So I don't regret leaving him since I've given my very best when it is him who was not grateful for getting the best...
GO GO CAIYOK!!!!!
muke penat sket br balek exam hehe
10 comments:
hehe smoga the guys who stole my heart come to me... hehehe
yeah...move forward. =) xtau apa nak cakap pun....
eit, jiji..
kamu ni sentiase on n off..
my opinion,better u off for a while..
focus kt ur priorities 1st..
sbb 'guy' yg really appreciate u most, akan muncul jgk..
cume mase je yg melambatkn..
u r nice person,gorgeous,and kind hearted..kinda friendly..
so xde sbb utk kamu xjumpe 'guy' tu..
just believe in urself..
moving forward doesn't mean u shud ignore the past..
yg lepas dijadikan pedoman hidup..
pastikan kesilapan lame xbrulang..
tp,sume tu prlukan usaha dan keinginan yang tinggi..
dengan itu,caiyok2!!
jgn pernah putus asa ya!!
smile always kay!!
p/s:sory pjg sgt..hee~
-ur beloved fren...\(^o^)/
Wa... Sp ka gerangan.. Ok... Biarla dat 'guy' kn...
Like I said I've given da best..
Kalo die rs xckp.. G la cr w da new gal..
She could b better initially...
But can b worse finally...
Pape pon ni 1 ujian.
Skang ni mmg OFF trs coz dis is a total betrayal..
Kalo ade jodoh ade.. Xde jodoh xpe la.. Ada yg lbh baik...
InsyaAllah
hey babe, wud happened? actually i dun quite understand the story...hehe..i'm in kuantan rite now, if u and leen mau hang out, jom lah..give me a call.bosan giler
btul3..hee~
sape kah gerangan??
huhu~
kite ni birthday dekat2 la..
ingat x? =)
pape pn dun gv up!!!
kwn2 sntiase ade 4 supporting u..
Hehe dah tau dh sape!!!!! Ok2.. Ingat kite nk celebrate sesame kan!!!! Hehehe
baek!!
celebrate same2!! =)
but sory xleh g medlead(xtaw eja..=P)
got frens nk tumpang blk skali..
neway,take care!!
njoy ur holidays~ \(^o^)/
jiji...atiq lah..hehe...
eyh..sorila coz jadi antara manusia yang agak lmbt tahu kisah ini among dak kelas kita...
chaiyok2...
kami pcaya u will meet another guy..hehe...
dun wori huh...
ceria-ceria je k...
aku tatau nak merepek mende kat blog aku huhu...
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