A Big Sister's Dilemma~ (-_-")

How do I start this..?? Hurm~ A few weeks ago I saw one of my "beloved relative" posted swears openly in facebook.. It startled me.. Somewhat frustrated by that action... but do you know what I did?? I did NOTHING!!!!


And then a few days after that there was a clamor of outrage about this video of mockery on Islam done by teenagers.. And then I learnt about this 13 year old rafiqin darwisy who did something that was so contraditory to the meaning of his name "pendamping warak"



I saw all the comments about the video and rafiqin darwisy and it is heartbreaking to see when parents are blamed.. Not that I'm against this.. I totally agree that the basic foundation of manners and attitude are to be instilled by parents.. It's just that, these teens already have the ability to decide on their own, just that their ability to recognize what is right and wrong for them is somewhat impaired due to whatever reason. I pity the parents because they might have already put all the effort in upbringing their children into being good individuals. It's just their children who choose that way..

From the two cases, I reflected on my role in helping the upbringing of the 'beloved relative' of mine. I always believe that every single person who appear in a child's life have a share in nurturing too, may it be a small role or big ones. Undeniably, I've neglected my role there. I could've just comment there on the status for my 'beloved relative' to mind the words posted on fb or at least write a casual "no good" there to make it sound more "friendly".. What was I thinking!!!!!???


It's really dilemmatic, you know. But to think of it, what ever quirks there is in you, you must play your role. You must utilize the teachable moment available to you.. Teachable moment often come spontaneously and we often didn't see that the split second was actually a conducive moment to instill good values... I hope I'll be more aware of the teachable moments in the future.. I won't favour the fact that I contribute to the foul attitude of any of my loved ones just because I didn't play my role well enough~

My 'beloved relative', I know you'll read this and please understand this dilemma in me.. You'll grow up and be in my place someday too.. So if I disapprove of something you do, it's not because I've changed into someone uncool or my love lessened.. It's because I want the best for you.. Hugs and kissess~ xoxoxo

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My Happy Ending (^^)

Hurm.. I still can't believe it's already the end of my study in IIUM.. I'm also still tired from all the post exam activities and yesterday, I was sleeping the whole day and only woke up for prayers~ I guess I just paste some pics here.. There are to0 many FUN stuffs to tell that I'm all out of words.. Lets just let the pics do the job (^^)

AGD rx5 "Glamour and Ambitious Night"
9th April 2010 De Rhu Resort
Theme: Black + Masqurade

Me and my lovely roommates~

Rx5 da girlz during the choral speaking performance..

Anea~ Mida~ Fizah~ Ray~ Me

Rx5 da girls with young lecturers~

The whole class with the academic staffs



Post AGD activities
10th and 11th April 2010
Cherating

During the war game briefing~

The winning team for the war game..
Strategic planning applied hehehe

Rx5 da girls ACTIVE!!!!!!!!!

I want to thank everbody who was involved in AGD and Post AGD.. Job well done! We had a very good time together..

Thanks a lot for this blissful ending...

Good luck in your career...

There are a lot more to be learned out there and
may all of us be guided by Him at all times (^^)v

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Some insights about "Green zone"

I just revealed that I easily wake up at 3 am in my previous post~ And now I'm literally writing this post at 3.30 am... I slept around 11.30 pm just now, but something is bothering my mind.. So I guess writing is the best way to dissipate the unruly thoughts away~


Like always.. Right now my window is wide opened.. The air is still.. Did a quick peek to find where's the moon..

"Where's the moon?? Where's the moon?? Aaah... there it is~"
It's right on top of me with moving thin clouds covering it.. A brilliant creation indeed~

I guess I'll talk about "Greenzone", a movie that I watched yesterday starring Matt Damon.. Well, the setting of the movie was back during the Iraq war when the US sent their troops to unravel the Weapon for Massive Destruction (WMD) and in this movie Matt Damon (Miller) is one of the team leader. He was suspicious about his futile findings and questioned his chiefs about the reliabilty of the information source. It turned out that everytime he raise question, they became irritated.. So he began his own investigation to find out the truth.. I remember 1 dialogue where Matt Damon said...


"What are we doing here chief?? I'm here to safe lives.. Safe the country" Matt Damon was a soldier who really wanted to help.. He was rather naive~

Matt Damon seriously did a marvellous come back.. But my favouite cast would be Freddy, an Iraqi civillain who wanted to contribute to his country.. He bravely went to Matt Damon's team to give information regarding this secret meeting of Saddam's subordinates and one time when Matt Damon offered Freddy a reward if he agrees to become Matt Damon's translator, he said...


"Do you think I'm doing this for a reward?? Don't you think I'm doing this for myself?? For my family?? For my country??"


Well, this part was where I burst into tears haha (fyi, I cried in almost all movie including "How to Train Your Dragon"~) But seriously.. It was really touching~ The movie meticulously illustrate the condition at that time.. Even the scene where the Iraqi went looting were shown.. But I know that the condition there were even worst in reality but what the director did for this movie was enough to make me say


"Ya Allah~ I don't want to be in that condition~"


There were lots of dialogues that express what was playing inside every concern mind in this world during the US invasion in Iraq. I won't write everything here because it'll be not exciting later to yous who haven't wathced the movie...

Anyway, this is a very good movie. There's very little bias in the movie and it is one of those that evoke the long forgotten spirit to fight against insolent leadership to pursue justice. It also portray patriotism and unity in some way... No religious element were inserted. I guess that was too sensitive, isn't it?


5 stars for "Greenzone"... As always, after watching this type of movie, I walked out feeling a little dizzy. Though there were not so many splattered blood on the screen, I just couldn't handle the tension from all the horrific scenes where civillains were captured and shot without mercy

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About to leave...

I'm currently sitting on my "deformed" bed.. Thanks to my not-so-brilliant action that it is now in its condition.


My eyes are alternately looking out through my window and the computer screen searching for inspiration of what to write.. This post has been hovering in my mind box for a few days now but I had to refrain myself from writing to focus on exam... I would like this post to really come from the bottom of my heart...


About to leave...


My room is overlooking a hill that is covered with lushest greenery.. It's a scene that I everyday watch especially during lunch.. With earphones snugged in both ears, I found tranquility from watching the scenery outside my window.. This inner peace allow me to think clearer..

It's the same setting that I watch everytime at dawn (around 3-4 am) only that the surrounding is dark.. I easily wake up at those time, I don't know why.. Some say it's because I was born around that time.. But whenever I woke up I tend to open my window... What I saw outside is like magic...


Everything is so still and there is always the melodic sounds of nocturnal animals.. Sometimes when the surrounding is lit by the full moon (like a few days ago) the surrounding just seem to sparkle... Rumi was right when he said "The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you~"


This is what I'm about to leave in a few days...
4 years seem to be so long, but now when the end is almost approaching, everything just seem like yesterday... There may be memories that I would love to erase but I can say that the 4 years were really the time where I learn a lot about life... Life was like a telenovela with each of us as the main actor and actress of our own drama..


There were joys and laughters...
There were sadness and resentment..
There were kindness and care...
There were feud and betrayal...
There were teamwork...
There were forgiveness and reconciliation...

We did not only sweat to colour the result slip with satisfying numbers but we also struggle to defend friendship, to uphold dignity and to make every day brighter than before.


I'm grateful to those who had had the courage to give me constructive critics.. Especially the ones about my awful time management, my fragile conscience when it comes about my tragic love story.. Thanks for guiding me to become wiser, for giving me strength to choose the right thing in life and for helping me "unlove" or is it "delove" someone that I thought I would marry one day..


Hurm.. 4 years is just too long for the people here to see all my flaws.. I think they seen it all.. So here I would like to thank everybody for accepting me for who I am.. For forgiving for all that I did wrong.. For earnestly being there for me when I was most in need.. There might be some "sorries" that were unsaid, so for the wrong doings of mine that were intentionally done or not, I am truly very sorry... I wish to leave pleasant foot steps in your life and not 'muddy' ones





O yeah~ I'm also well aware that there are too many kindness from these people here that I might not be able to give anything in return.. I just want to let you know that I appreciate every single thing done for me.. For any act of kindness that any of you have impart, I wish that some day the same is given to you and the best is there'll be reward from our Creator, InshaAllah~


To leave is a mix of joy and fear.. Joyful that I finally finish my quest for knowledge.. Fearful for not being able to foresee how is life going to be later.. All the time spent here was a net of gains and loss.. Some loss were good, some loss were resentful but I'm in hope that the gains will be enough to prepare me to face the challenges of the real world.. But I'm all aware one of life's rule which is "to learn, unlearn and relearn"there are more things to learn out there...



To think about it, the Haziah that walked in 4 years ago is not going to walk out as the same person..

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NPSC 2010 \(^^)/

6th March 2010.. National Pharmacy Sports Carnival (NPSC)

This event was held in Shah Alam and the host for this year's NPSC was MSU...
I played futsal this year and was the captain of the team.. Awe and I were busied by lots of things including the interbatch sports that we had only one training.. Awe and I desperately searched for our long-lost chemistry that night but it was almost futile..

I'm really grateful to the juniors that they had their own initiative for training and did not rely on me.. Thanks girls..

There were 6 teams and we were in Group A along with Uitm and USM...

UIA vs Uitm 0-2 UIA vs USM 2-0 (1st goal by Anis and 2nd goal by me)
Semi Final
UIA vs MSU 2-0

We won the penalty in the semi.. Honestly, I was all weary after the game.. The MSU team was quite agile and the keeper could throw the ball up to the D area that we had to intnsify our defense. My greatest gratitude to our keeper Nad who was really good at her job.. She saved a lot of attempts inclcuding two penalties!!!! \(^^)/




Thanks also to Anis who scored the first penalty and Sha who scored the second one.. I was about to do the third one.. Put myself last because I didn't trained for penalty and my previous penalty during interkuliyyah was predictable.. aiyak!

Final
UIA vs Uitm 1-0

This was a scary game.. Luckily I got used to all the crowd and cheers due to the previous interkuliyyah so I just shut my world from the surrounding crowds of noisy supporters.. I scored the winning goal.. I didn't really expect the attempt would score a goal.. I heard Awe's voice saying "Gg GOOO!!!" and just kicked the ball and then I saw the ball passed a few players in front of me and missed the keepers hand and voila GOOOOOOAAAAAALLLLL!!!!!!!!!!

And then we just defend the goal.. 3 of us were defending and when the ball was ours only one went to attack.. Well, we were only killing time.. But it was rather annoying that it felt so long inside the court~ I could hear our friends chanting "BERTAHAN BERTAHAN BERTAHAN" I think I was chanting along inside my mind

O ya~ this is the netball team who also won gold.. The final was against uitm too.. It was scorching hot and we were all burnt and tanned~
Surprisingly, despite winning 5 Golds we were not the overall champion for NPSC.. Weird~

O ya~ Rx5 won all games during interbatch again.. Alhamdlillah~ I was quite worried of losing because I was openly confident in facebook hahaha That was intentional though.. Just to trigger some hype during the game...


Hurm.. I guess that's all.. I don't know why I have this feeling that all these games stuffs will be my last.. Maybe because of that the end of my student life is approaching~ Or am I thinking of tansforming myself into a demure indoor girl?? NOT!!!!!!!!!!

Post-over-physical-activity effect-->> Increased appetite and sleep!!!!!!!!!! Huargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Zoo Negara!!!!!!!

5th March 2010.. Visit to Zo0 Negara

Honestly, I went there for like 5 to 6 times already since 1992 so I was not all that excited since there were really2 little changes in my previous visits.. But this visit was undeniably an extraordinary one than the ones in the past. For the first time ever we had the chance to directly meet the vets that tend the animals and they jubilantly shared their knowledge and experience.

We observed the hospital.. See for ourselves what medicine they use and how they keep it... But my faourite part would the talk by Dr Muhamaad Daniel Felix.. You can see it in his eyes how passionate he is with his job.. He shared some knowledge about animal behaviour that made the room with o0o0o0o0hh~ and aaaaaaahhhh~

My favourite story is about his loser babboon who annually got admitted into the ward due to injury from his lost battle for a mate.. The babboon was so a loser that finally the zoo decided to put him into isolation whenever the mating season come so that he'll not be beaten .. But the doctor told us that although the injuries were obviously fatal-looking, the babboon have this remarkable healing that he healed quickly after that

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