Inferiority Complex: Resolved

blog-walking~ blog-hopping~ blog-flying~ wutever they call it~

urm~ sangat kagum dengan kawan2 uia yang bole speak out their minds~ sedikit inferior~ the titles of their posts are like

Tips tips dari Al-Quran...
Menjana Minda Pemuda Pemudi Islam...
Islah dan Tarbiyyah...
Kembali Ke Jalan Mu...
(tajuk2 di atas adalah rekaan semata mata~ Just want to describe what kind of things they wrote)

Hurm~ I'm seriously awed at how in depth they could actually discuss all these things~ I sometimes think they are even eligible to do their own talk show~ bravo bravo!

Inferior~ Di dalam hatiku berkata "Aku dak uia jugak tapi blog ngarut2~ Teringin gak nak tulis gini~" But then~

Aku dak SMSL jugak~

Aku ex St Anne jugak

So0o0o00 it doesn't really matter what I write in here although I'm a uia student~ Because this is what I call ORIGINALITY~

Anyway~ I may not speak my mind that much~ But I think I speak my heart hehe (whatever the difference is between those two)

This is my refined heart~ Last time I posted a broken heart in an entry entitled "Melancholy" but I removed that post because it was ruining the happy reputation of this pink blog~ heee :P So this one is a golden heart and it's hollow you know..

Hollow~ because I've given the inside to my family and friends and others who deserve them~ But there's still one piece of it inside... A special piece that is.. I secure it in a golden heart so that it is not easily taken~ only a "special someone" could have that piece~ (the "someone" who has not yet appear) hehe

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The Guys Who Stole My Heart II

Amidst a serious mission.. Focusing on the letters on the paper in front of you.. Armed with the colorful multicolored highlighter pen.. The idea spark out.. and you decide to leave your desk and start browsing for www.blogspot.com~

Huhu somewhat annoying.. But it's normal.. When you are at this important stuff.. Though with great determination.. The urge to write in this pinky blog is just irresistable~

This is the second version of the guys who stole my heart~ Tiba-tiba macam tebayang all these cute faces masa atas meja hehe

The GERARD BUTLER!!! Yeay!!!
Hehe yes~ this is the brave Spartan king Leonidas in 300.. He won the award of valor in my heart
This is also the same loving and romantic dead husband in P.S I Love you
Thanx a lot for making me cry~ heee
Gamer.. The Ugly Truth.. Law Abiding Citizen~
What's the most appealing thing about him?? EVERYTHING!!!
Quite old though but hurm~ that's okay (^^)/




Ok~ hehe this is different~This is Mr. Mysterious Snake Eyes..
A martial art master with wistful mind~
Totally silent throughout GI Joe and that's because he vowed not to speak after his sensei was assassinated by his hurm so-called brother (wutever~)
Hehe I like a guy who keeps his promise!!
And he never open his mask so we really don't know how he look like~
Sudah ku bilang aku nda memandang rupa~



CAER~ CAER~

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Rajen Seperti Lebah!!!!!!!!!!

Final year Pharmacy~ That's where I'm at~

At this stage~ I can say I'm quite fed up with all the exams~

Imagine~ Since first year we have to answer at least 3 short essays and 2 long essays in every subject.. And sometimes the subject could be up to 12 subjects per semester~ Urgh! Seriously depressing~

At this stage~ I also feel like engaging myself to this "asal lulus" notion~

But then~ there's a voice at the other end of my handphone that says

"Final year suda ni dik~ Tinggal berapa jak exam~ X pala kalo berabis pon~ Just make sure you do your best"

Huhu~ That's the voice of the person I love the most~

The person who would fight for me to go home when there's only 1 week holiday~

The voice from across the South China Sea~

So I guess I'm going to throw away all the laziness in me and start to adhere to my new motto~ Well, I've been typing this motto several times on my fb status~ That was to make sure I really instill it in me hehe I'm not sure whether it works or not yet~ Anyway..

Mari~ Mari~ Mari~ Mari kawan kawan.. Mari kite

RAJEN SEPERTI LEBAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Xmau rajen sorang2~ Hehe

Go0d Luck For Final Everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Final Schedule

4 Nov Pharmacotherapeutics
6 Nov Over-The-Counter Drugs
9 Nov Quality Assurance
10 Nov Pharmacy Practice IV
13 Nov Dosage Design II
17 Nov Sterilization and Asetic Technique
18 Nov Pharmacoepidemiology & pharmacoeconmics
19 Nov MCQ

Study study study~ Pastu tido dengan nyenyak!!!!!!!!

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Him and Her: Love and Hate

Him:

"CRACK!!!"

That's the blissful sound that marks my freedom from the translucent spherical dwelling.. Alhamdulillah~ Now I can stretch my body and no longer be in the suffocating curled posture~

Hurm~ How silent it is out here.. Where's mom?? Where's dad?? Aren't they here to see the birth of their beloved son?? Never mind~ Maybe they went out to search for food or maybe resting somewhere on the ceiling~

Wagging my tail~ Wiggling my tiny limbs~ I think I'm already fit for an adventure.. I can't wait to see the world! \(^^)/ When I was inside my spherical dwelling, I always heard lovely music coming from the outside.. And sometimes I even heard laughters.. It must be exciting out there. YES!! I'm going to see the world!!!


At this tender age, ascending is quite hard.. I still have the fear of heights.. But I ignore that fear since my excitement surpass my fear.. UP! UP! UP! Fo0o0o0h~ I finally arrive at the top~

Hurm~ I didn't expect the world to be a mixture of blue, green and pink... I think I need to enjoy the lovely surrounding in a horizontal position~ I'm getting a little bit dizzy~ I think the gravity is pulling my blood to my tail~

Plo0o0o0p~ I land on a pinkish ground.. Wow! So Sweet~ The world is SERIOUSLY amazing!!! I could see shiny goldish things, a pink flower in a pink vase with a blue butterfly on one of the flower petal, a stack of rectangular thingies that is so tall that it look like a mountain~ Wow! I'm going to climb that when I'm older~

HUrm~ I think I heard a voice~ A familiar voice. I turn around to look~ Ah~ A human girl~ she must be my neighbour.. No wonder her voice sounds familiar.. Her voice must have penetrated the shell too.. I think I'm going to say hi~

"COK CEK COK CEK!" saying hi in the most friendliest tone and with the warmest smile ever But then~
"AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

The high pitch sound hurts my ear. I must run and hide!

I can see her from my hiding place. She is muttering something under her breath.. There's an uneasy expression.. I think she hates me~ Must I go away and never return????


Her:

YES, I HATE YOU!!!!!!! and YES, YOU MUST GO AWAY AND NEVER RETURN!!!!!!!!

People say "jangan benci sangat nanti jadi cinta" but in this case I don't think so~

BENCIIIIIIIIII!!!

Masa kecil2 dulu~ suka sangat tengok Henry the lizard~ Could it be "cinta jadi benci" instead???

This post is dedicated to the newborn lizard who is always on my desk since last week~ urgh!!!!!!

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OLD VS. MATURE~

"What's your definition of maturity, Haziah?" asked a senior back in school.

I was a little bit stratled with the question especially when it came from someone who is older but I answered it anyway. With little confidence though~

"I don't really know but I think it's when you think more than once in making a decision and finally you get to choose the right thing to do... I guess~"

Hurm~ that was like 8 years ago when I was in form 3. But as I grow, I realize one thing.. Ironically, maturity doesn't neccessarily grow with age. The increasing number doesn't really portray the increment of maturity. In some cases, maturity even declines as we grow old...

This is not from mere observation. Even me myself, I think as I grow my principles and conscience sometimes become shaky deep within. I think I need reminders a lot more these days than before. And it seems that the 'cases', 'happenings', and the 'doings' of the people around me has also become more and more 'extravagant' than they were before.

Is it that now we are an 'adult' so we get to do whatever we want?

Or is it that we are no longer afraid of the consequences that we COULD get or WILL get from the things we did?

I'm pretty sure almost every Muslim child said these when they were little..

"Jangan buat macam tu.. Nanti Allah marah~"

"Jangan tipu, nanti kena potong lidah~"

But~ sadly we almost always forget to remind ourselves like this these days~ Yerp~ same goes to Haziah~

It's worrisome~ Looking at the 'extravagant' things done by the people around me, it gives me this crushing feeling in my ribs and I constantly ask "Why?"...

It's worrisome~ I'm so0o0o0 so0o0 so0o0o0 worried if one day I'm placed in that position. Because it would be so sadistic~

It's like having renal failure~ your kidney is problematic.. Detected early by doctors and they give you treatment.. The doctors are the people who love and care for you and tell you what you did wrong..

But then the treatment failed~ so your renal failure progress to the next stage and it goes on until the final stage if all interventions fail~ And at the end stage (when your mistake is at its peak).. some people they are lucky to get a kidney transplant but to some the transplant never come and finally die...

The transplant is like you are enlightened to see the truth and go back on track.. But to some, they just 'leave' with the mistake never corrected~ some even 'leave' while doing it.. huhu that gives me goosebumps~ Hurm~ Pondering again~

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I just finished reading a junior's blog talking about syndicates that use children to beg for money~

I remember an arab class I had during matrix.. The ustazah recited a hadith that tells the story of our Prophet giving a beggar a sack of grains to sell so that the beggar will stop begging...



At the end of the class she told us


"Don't encourage beggars to beg.. When you give, you are encouraging them not to work and hope from others.. But if you see those who have something with them like tissues then you can give because there's an effort there.."


I told mommy what the ustazah taught us.. Like always, she has her own opinion on the matter too


"Hurm.. I think, when you are in doubt to give some change to the beggar because you're afraid they are from a syndicate, then don't just pass by just like that.. Pray for them in your heart~ that's the least you could do,right?"

huhu~ that's my dear mom (^^)v


Hurm~ as for dad.. Once a kid begged at our table when we were having our family meal somewhere in KL... I thought he was going to shoo him away because the boy was so persistent~ but then dad invited him to join our dinner.. Then the boy left with full stomach of course.. Then dad said


"At least the boy left with a full stomach~" all of us smiled~





Hurm~ ponder ponder~

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