Nov 30, 2018

Medical Camp: Pensiangan 23-25 November 2018


Bismillah...

This is my 8th year of service, and this is my very first involvement in a Medical Camp in Sabah! Finally!! \(^^)/

I received last minute offers many times before but I usually have something else scheduled that I have to decline. And for this one, Alhamdulillah, I had an offer on the same day that I turned down another offer to the same place.

Honestly, I was really really excited. Was asking around about this part of interior Sabah from those who went there before. Googled the map and details of the people. I was not even sure of what to wear and was stalking other people's IG to see what they wore to Medical Camp on the night I packed my stuffs. Adui.. Budak bandar konon~ Hahaha

I woke up early on that day and asked my Dad to drive me to the hospital. Our departure was delayed by a few hours due to some transport arrangement issues but I was okay to have arrived early. One of my resolution this year is to improve on punctuality. And I had the chance to study some Japanese while waiting.




We rode an air-conditioned van to Keningau.. I have to mention this because after that we were stuffed in a non AC van for another 3 hours to reach KK Nabawan and then to a village where we shift to a 4WD vehicle. I saw one of the volunteer posted on her IG story "There are 17 of us is this non AC van!" hahaha It was not the most comfortable ride but since I've experienced worst so I was actually okay. At least the ventilation was okay and the road was not bumpy although my legs were not in a comfortable position. Amazingly, AJ manage to fall asleep and the rest of us were occasionally engaged in small talks throughout the journey.




We were the last to arrive and the villagers were already waiting to get their medications. It was quite frantic that evening. Maybe because how the tables were arranged. I guess, those who arrived earlier had set them up in a hurry too. We had to speak loudly to make sure we were heard by our patient; I was struggling because my voice is not the loud type LOL I had no picture of that commotion. Thank God because I'm sure I'll be ugly if there is any hahaha That night we joined the others to pack some gifts and stationery for the kids. And this room on top wass where we spent our night at the first village. I think it was comfortable and I had a good night sleep.



Second day with Dr Emma who came all the way from Serdang to join us serve the people in Pensiangan. We started at around 8 am that morning. The table arrangement was improved so the flow was smoother that morning. At around 11 am, EVJ and LH left to the next village by boat leaving AJ and me. AJ kept on saying "Syukur nyeeeee GG yang tulis~" because she went on and on and on about both of the guys' undecipherable hand writing hahaha




It took around 30 minutes to the next village by boat. I was surprised to see there were strong rapids as we cruise on the river. It got me a bit worried for a while, wondering if the boat can pass them safely. Well it did, Alhamdulillah. There were times when the water splashed and we cheered in excitement. The guy sitting in front turned and asked "First time ke?" hahaha Naaaah~ we're just the type who easily get excited that things will seem like it's our first time every time hahaha

There were fewer patients at the second village that evening. The weather was a bit too hot for me that I was actually trying my best to bear a bad headache throughout the afternoon. Around 4 pm, we went to check our accommodation for that night. I was fast asleep while the rest went to explore the village. Only got hold of PCM later that night and finally it got better. They had some activity at the church but I didn't go and were just chatting with the other girls. EVJ and LH went to play cards with another group of NGO that was there to install solar panels. hurm.. Nampak sangat ketuaan aku kan dalam kisah ini~




We started around 9 am on our last day. Actually, the dentist was the hottest spot of all. We really pity him to have single-handedly handled all the patients in both village. He pulled like more than 40 teeth in a day! 

We left the village at around 12 something that afternoon and our journey upstream took twice the duration downstream. We even stopped to get some fuel midway. There was this other boat that was smaller and the engine was only like 15 horsepower (based on what was printed on the engine). I was observing it every time it was nearby because the way it got drifted away every time it tried to push on against the current was actually horrific! I was like, "Oh My God~ I'm happy I'm not on that boat.."

Cute baby~




The awesome team we worked with! 
One of them is the nurse in my ward who invited me to join along
There is a nurse I played futsal with
And one of them is a nurse I met in India in 2016!!!!! 


Someone in this picture is kind of an Insta Famous and we were stoked when we found out hahahaha
and then we decided to add his number of followers hahaha


Oh that's just me.. In a rare good candid pic hahaha
Smile and salam kiddo!
Mesti aku tengah mengarut ngarut dengan budak ni masa ni



I'm so grateful to have been given the opportunity to experience this :)

Nov 28, 2018

Why I Decided To Quit Facebook~

Bismillah...

Life has been really really hectic for the past few weeks that I finally decided to quit Facebook after 9 years! Hahaha I was having a not so amazing day and that evening when I finally got the time to lie down, have my own time to unwind, I decided to see what was up on Facebook.


Honestly, despite having frequent posts on Facebook, I was not an active 'newsfeed stroller' for the past 3 years. My posts were mostly directly shared from IG. I only open my FB page through my phone browser once or twice a day to see if there was anything that I should reply to. Visit some of the comedian or inspirational pages if I feel like I need some dose of humour or motivation. And occasionally 'stalk' random people that crossed my mind just to see how they are doing in life these days.

So that evening, when I was scrolling my newsfeed there were...

Resentful remarks on the current political situation and I was like, "Oh c'mon! Why can't these people just move on!"

And then there were some invitations to sign petitions. I end up looking up on the issues that I later found was emotionally disturbing

And some disturbing news on child abuse and marriage problems

And then there were the regular showoffs

And then I went,
"Ok Haziah.. I think we just made our not so amazing day from bad to worse... We don't need this now and ever..."

Took me some time to find the deactivation button since the browser version is not as user friendly. But I finally did it! I ticked the 'I don't find FB useful' at the reason for the deactivation and then there was this pop up that suggested how to make FB useful and I was like, "I've made up my mind.. Zuckerberg will still be a wealthy chap if I leave~ Lalalala"


FB used to be fun; it did connect me with some long lost friends and with those I met during my travels. When my friends list were just those people who knew me in real life, I used to posts a lot of crap because these people knew it was just that;  'CRAP!'. I used to love posting the quotes that I agreed to, deep thoughts that crossed my mind through my observations, phrases from books etc. I stopped because acquaintances were like, "Why are you so emo on FB?"

I was not emo. It was just quotes that I found wise. And I just don't get it, why contemplating my surrounding and writing them into words is emo? Fine! Maybe because I'm not Yasmin Mogahed or Lang Leav or Najwa Zebian etc.


So far, I don't feel like I'm missing anything. None of the viral stuffs really matter anyway other than causing annoyance. And I really don't like it when the excessive sharing on negative stuffs gives you the idea that this world is a bad place to live in. There are still so many beauty, hopes and kindness in this world; why are they not being highlighted as much as the negative stuffs.


Well, life is not always rainbow for me too, but I have countless other blessings that can make me curve a smile at the end of each day.

Do I feel like I'm disconnected from my close friends that live far from me?

To think of it, I have their phone numbers anyway. I realized that browsing through their page, looking at their current pictures are not 'real connection'. 'Real connection'  is when we really contact them, interact with them and ask how's life. Looking at their pictures will make us assume a lot of things that might not be true. Well, some posts might trigger contact but... yeah it's okay. I know I can maintain my connection with people who really matter.

And there's a particular person that feel more and more like a stranger whenever I see his posts and I don't like that feeling.

To sum it all, I guess FB is another thing that I 'decluttered' from my life for a peace of mind.
The world is still a beautiful place, and I'm not going to let people shroud me from that fact.
I'm not totally disconnected from the people that matter to me, because in reality I can always reach them even without FB and I know they can reach out to me too.
And a person who really wants you will pursue you, will make it clear, won't make you second guess and not having FB will not stop what's already written from happening. Have faith in Allah for He knows what's best :)

Nov 11, 2018

A Quote To Live By..

Bismillah,

Mine is the 4 simple words...

"ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST"

Whether it's a hard task or an easy one, whether I like or not, I will always try to put my best foot forward because to me it is still something where I invest my time and energy in, so why not just give my best anyway.

Like in sports, for instance, losing after you've tried your best to me is less frustrating than when you know you could've done better. (^^)