Taking it to a PERSONAL level...

It's the end of my sixth week in the clinical rotation and I'm currently stationed in the ICU ward. 2 weeks full of turmoils to go...

Recently, I've been quite sentimental. A mixture of crisp emotions ever so frequently wash over me as I scrutinize the hospital surrounding. I'm starting to see the hospital as a small world that have almost everything in it...

In these weeks, in which I'm closest to the patients and their families, I saw a lot of things.. I saw the spark of joy in one's eyes as the doctor confirmed to him that he's recovering.

I saw a patient broke down on his bed when the doctor explained that he'll be debilitated for life. With most of his spine damaged, he could only quiver with tears running down his cheeks. It was a heart wrenching scene..

I saw patients who gave up hope and refuse treatment because they can't endure the excrutiating pain.

I also witnessed family members who never lose hope and waited for miracle to happen. Despite knowing the fact that the patient won't be able to 'make it', the family continue to take good care of the patient and had kept him comfortable.

There were two deliberate self-harm cases in which none survived

Currently in ICU, I'm still trying to get use to looking at those patients who have all the wires and tubes inserted into them and is trying to adapt with those irritating beeping sounds of the life support machines.

Looking at these people, I realize that.. yeah.. we don't have complete control of our fate... Everything happen by His will and we can never predict what's His plan for us tomorrow.

My self-deprecation episode have not entirely subside but I'm starting to gain confident again as I look at my patients. They are the reason why I should learn more. They are the reason for me to polish my knowledge and skills. They are the reason because I'm taking this to a personal level. I'm putting myself in the shoes of their family members who are fill with hope and that hope is actually in the hands of the healthcare team.

The healthcare team can never fight fate. But what they can do is to provide the best service. If I were in the shoes of those family members, I wouldn't want my family member to be treated by incompentent healthcare providers; may it be the doctor, the nurse or the pharmacist. Because these people complement each other. Any incompetentcy could be lethal in any stage of care.. And an incompetent pharmacist is what I DON'T want to be...

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The Deceitful Route...

I hurt my right hand today. I guess I overused it last Tuesday that it couldn't withstand today's climbing; though I only did one toprope and some very very light bouldering. I've no intention to worsen it so I decided to go home early before I'm tempted to climb again.. So here I am on my bed, in front of my laptop, with an abandoned infectious disease notes just beside me and to compensate my climbing I think I'll write something about climbing tonight.

Well, I just did a route setting on Tuesday. It was a very nice experience and it was harder than I thought it would be.

Firstly I'd to choose some hand and foot holds. It is best to choose holds that of the same colour to make the route recognizable to climbers. I chose the blue holds because I thought they were of different shapes and sizes and I'd wanted my route to be deceitful. Meaning, I want people to underestimate it and later think "Wah! Susah ni!" once they tried it hehehe

Before fixing those holds on the wall, I actually imagined how the route would be and the skills that I want climbers to apply as they climb. But honestly, when I finished fixing the holds, my route was even harder than I'd imgined!





Ryan, 12 y.o, assisted me during the route setting process. He helped me attach the holds at the starting point and then became my loyal belayer. He used two sand bags to balance our weight. That made me feel heavy. That red recycle bag I'm carrying was filled with holds and screws so that've caused heavier load for our tiny belayer. With that heavy load, I also found it harder to climb up.

Here's a video of me fixing the holds. Ryan was yelling from below, complaining about the far gap between the holds hehe




So here's a picture of me testing my own route. I fell 5 times but finally manage to reach the top..




The other climbers helped to name the route...



Crazy G!!!!!!
I succeed in making the route deceitful (^^)v

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I'm eyeing you~~

I can't take my eyes off you~ Miura VS...


This is my dream climbing shoes right now and it's DAMN EXPENSIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At least RM630!!!!


My Evolv, the right one to be exact, already got a hole on its sole for about a month now and I've been eyeing on some climbing shoes. And finally, when I saw this Miura VS, I got this feeling that we're meant to be haha :P

A high performance hook and loop closure shoe for amazing edging control and pocket climbing performance

Easy to use hook and loop closure system for easy on and off convenience. Slingshot rand and Powerhinge system gives you the ultimate edging power. 4mm Vibram® XS Edge and XS Grip2 (Women's model) sticky rubber outsole

WEIGHT: 8.23 oz/ 228 g LAST: WPD 75 CONSTRUCTION: Slip Lasted UPPER: Leather LINING: Dentex, unlined underfoot MIDSOLE: P3® with 1.1mm LaspoFlex SOLE: 4mm Vibram® XS Grip2

Some say this Miura VS are meant for pros and only those who can do 6c can have this and bla bla bla.. I don't care.. I want this one.. 6c is just far beyond my ability right now, but I think this Miura VS will get me there... (^^)/ Positive about that.. Will get there some day!!!!



But since it's so expensive, I think I'll save some money.. Planning on reducing my expenses on food because that will bring about multi-benefit.. Save money + slimmer & trimmer Haziah, and then slimmer and trimmer and light me will subsequently bring about easy climbing.. Yosh!! I'm so0o0o0o0 clever!!! hahaha

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