MY grand finale IFTARSSSSSS

The last Ramadhan as a pharmacy undergraduate~ huhu sad sad sad~

I went out with the otai2 ARC to jam-packed our stomach with scrumptious cuisines in Gardeen tom yam~ This is the noisiest iftar ever because we were recollecting all the memories from Rakit, from Padang and other activities.. ARC is like one big family where we share the same passion~ Be one with nature! (^^)V

Next, I had Iftar with Mekwa, Mr SA and Mr. WRJ~ This was a last minute plan~ Luckily we got the seat in Sara Thai that evening~ But it was so weird to be seated in a long table with strangers sitting just next to you~ But I had fun to during the Iftar. Everything was delicious nyum nyum~ hehe only the pic before the iftar is displayed here for safety reasons~ haha :P saye tidak bercinte~ tidak tidak~

Then, I had Iftar with my beautiful and sweet classmates.. We went for iftar twice actually and we did both in Padang MPK, Kuantan.. Well, the first one was right after the Pharmacy Practice exam.. We unanimously agreed that we need to unwind that evening.. So off we went to watch Final Destination:Death Trip and then we went to Iftar after that~

Huhu as usual the scenes were gruesome; with people dying in ogrish kind of way and with blood splattered all over the screen.. Luckily I brought with me my large handbag to cover my face hehe but I'm quite proud of myself because I manage to watch all the scenes hehe (^^)V although I was experiencing vertigo right after that :P

these are my room mates~ they are the ones who took care of me when my left leg was broken during 1st year sem II =) I'm most thankful

The second one was a more planned iftar.. My room mates and I who were the early birds picked a spot in the field.. This time we managed to take more pictures since we arrived early~ Very very nice~ I think we made the largest circle that evening :)

The final iftar was Rx5 iftar in Wan tomyam~ the food are seriously enticing.. Luckily I arrived just a few minutes before adzan.. So I don't have to endure the gastric juice secretion from looking at those food hehe

Only a few of us were there because many of us already went home~ but still we had a great moment~

now ramadhan is approaching its end.. huhu sad sad~ The month of blessings.. will I be there for you again next year?? O~ I really hope so~

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Kakak yang busy body~

Today is the second day breaking fast with my family but my dear little brother was not around. He had an iftar and khatam Al-quran in school so no chit chat after meal for the day.. I was left alone~




As I was enjoying the taste of churned food in my mouth, I suddenly caught a glimpse of a familiar chart which I thought was quite awkward to be paste in my home.. A list of ibadah to be done in Ramadhan with ticks in most of the cubicles... We used to get that in UIA but for this year it was on one's effort to get it


I draw myself closer to get a clearer view.. A name was scribbled on the top of the table~


Mohd Syamir Mohd Salleh


"Owh its his~" I mumbled, carving a smile of gratitude.. Alhamdulillah~



My finger travelled along its surface to see what he did throughout ramadhan~ kakak yang sebok.. hehe Suddenly~ OUCH!!!



I saw ticks in the Solat Dhuha cubicles huhu~ tersentap diriku~ I didn't do that throughout Ramadhan but this dear 12 year old did had the effort to do it during weekends despite being busy preparing for UPSR.. Alhamdulillah~


"O Allah~ May his life be enlightened with guidance at all times and may his heart be stengthened throughout his jouney in this world"

I'm most grateful to see my brother is so obedient in such a tender age.. I really hope this go on and he'll continue to get better and better each day~

To have lived this world for 23 years~ I think I witnessed too many occassions in which people change; may it be gradually or drastically.. It gives me the creeps~ Because as far as I'm concerned, a good or an islamic family background, a good education, a good circle of friends and many more~ they don't gurantee or safe-guard us from negative changes.. Bad influences comes in many forms and could poison our thinking and behaviour in so many unimaginable ways and it could happen at any time~ even when we are in our 60's, when kubur sedang melambai lambai~ The most poignant part of it is when the individual doesn't realize it huhu A few nights ago a friend mentioned this to me..


"Sebenarnye didikan agame and family background tu memang a strong basic.. Tapi ape ape sume bergantung kat individu tu sendiri.. Individu tu yang kena kuat.."



Huhu I hope all of us are strenghtened in our journey~


Hurm.. I continue to trace every word that were available on the piece of paper.. The last column wrote Lailatul Qadar.. A tick was there too.. On the 22nd night of Ramadhan~ That makes me wonder... Hurm~ but then again. I guess I just let myself wonder forever why he'd tick that too.

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I seriously love this picture hehe

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Be happy with yourself: even when you're not suppose to???

Be happy with yourself~

A cliche'~ Something I heard so many times uttered by so many people but I don't know why when I saw this particular phrase on a person's fb wall, it suddenly becomes mind-boggling~


Be happy with yourself~ That means be happy with myself~ How I appear to be~ And that means being in a comfort zone where I don't have to bother about my bad~ Just accept me for who I am~


Does that apply in any time in life~ I mean, should I be happy with myself when I'm not suppose to.. For instance~

Should I be happy with myself when I know I just perposely hurt someone~?

Should I be happy with myself when I'm so corrupt~?

My honest answer would be a NO NO!

I think I want to add some words to this phrase to justify it to my conscience...


My definition of integrity~ integrity is when I do right even when people are not looking and not knowing~ But if I go against this~ I should not be happy with myself~ I may appear to be good in the eyes of human being, but in reality only Allah knows~


My values and principles~ I have my own sets of values and principles~ Each of us does~ Those which are divine, those which are conditioned to me as I grow and those gained through experience.. Everytime I go against them~ that's when I should not be happy with myself~

Well there's many more actually but I guess these two are the strong points that when they are compromised then I should not be happy with myself. When I'm not happy with myself, it doesn't mean that I should succumb to agony and started hating myself~ NO~ But it means that it's time to call for reflection of the things I did wrong and in what ways can I compensate for it or avoid it later in the future~ a.k.a muhasabah~

So my newly added phrase would be

Be happy with yourself only when you know Allah is "happy" with what you do, Haziah


How can we make Him "happy" with us~? I think His prophet left us everything in the Al-Quran and sunnah~ Here's one of them..

"Those who (in charity) spend of their goods by night and by day, in secret and in public, have their reward with their Lord: on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve." (2:274)

But we can't be so sure if we are making Him "happy" right?? and I think that's why we are encouraged to do good constantly~

"Dan barangsiapa menghendaki kehidupan akhirat dan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, sedangkan dia beriman, maka mereka itulah yang usahanya dibalas dengan baik" 17:19

O ya, actually this is a personal statement for myself hehe Just reiterating the things that I hold true in my blog to remind myself~ :D Saye budak baru belajar.. Kalo salah tolong tunjukkan :)

We are never meant to be perfect however Allah has given us the chance to choose our path in this temporary abode... Lets choose to improve in ways that we can~ everyday~

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