Sep 11, 2009

Be happy with yourself: even when you're not suppose to???

Be happy with yourself~

A cliche'~ Something I heard so many times uttered by so many people but I don't know why when I saw this particular phrase on a person's fb wall, it suddenly becomes mind-boggling~


Be happy with yourself~ That means be happy with myself~ How I appear to be~ And that means being in a comfort zone where I don't have to bother about my bad~ Just accept me for who I am~


Does that apply in any time in life~ I mean, should I be happy with myself when I'm not suppose to.. For instance~

Should I be happy with myself when I know I just perposely hurt someone~?

Should I be happy with myself when I'm so corrupt~?

My honest answer would be a NO NO!

I think I want to add some words to this phrase to justify it to my conscience...


My definition of integrity~ integrity is when I do right even when people are not looking and not knowing~ But if I go against this~ I should not be happy with myself~ I may appear to be good in the eyes of human being, but in reality only Allah knows~


My values and principles~ I have my own sets of values and principles~ Each of us does~ Those which are divine, those which are conditioned to me as I grow and those gained through experience.. Everytime I go against them~ that's when I should not be happy with myself~


Well there's many more actually but I guess these two are the strong points that when they are compromised then I should not be happy with myself. When I'm not happy with myself, it doesn't mean that I should succumb to agony and started hating myself~ NO~ But it means that it's time to call for reflection of the things I did wrong and in what ways can I compensate for it or avoid it later in the future~ a.k.a muhasabah~

So my newly added phrase would be

Be happy with yourself only when you know Allah is "happy" with what you do, Haziah


How can we make Him "happy" with us~? I think His prophet left us everything in the Al-Quran and sunnah~ Here's one of them..

"Those who (in charity) spend of their goods by night and by day, in secret and in public, have their reward with their Lord: on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve." (2:274)

But we can't be so sure if we are making Him "happy" right?? and I think that's why we are encouraged to do good constantly~

"Dan barangsiapa menghendaki kehidupan akhirat dan berusaha bersungguh-sungguh, sedangkan dia beriman, maka mereka itulah yang usahanya dibalas dengan baik" 17:19

O ya, actually this is a personal statement for myself hehe Just reiterating the things that I hold true in my blog to remind myself~ :D Saye budak baru belajar.. Kalo salah tolong tunjukkan :)




We are never meant to be perfect however Allah has given us the chance to choose our path in this temporary abode... Lets choose to improve in ways that we can~ everyday~



Sep 8, 2009

A letter for you~

Dear you,


I've been keeping this to myself and I think now it's time for you to know how I really feel about your habit that has been disturbing us all..



I'm trying my very best to understand that you are homeless and strayed. Living without an owner makes you less trained and even ruthless at times.. But in my eyes, you are one of His creation for us to see His Magnificence~ And I also think that you are created to give us some room to do good to0 ~ by feeding you, by providing you shelter and many more..

But~ recently~ I can't help but abhor your habit~ You littered in the washbasin where we wash our clothes.. I no longer know how to back you up since I also think that is somewhat too much.. I really appreciate it if you could litter in the toilet instead so then some of us could wash and flush it for you~ because if you do so in the shower, the solid mass could clog the drain..

I'm also disturbed when you guys fight among yourselves.. I know that's your nature to fight for territories.. But it would be really really nice if we could all be friends~Then no one will be bothered by the sounds of cat fights anymore...

Now two showers' drains are clogged~ Huhu~ And nothing has been done to fix it~ Hurm~ I wish Bob the builder could help us with that~

Take care..

P.S- I LOVE YOU~

-Haziah-


haha~ terpengaruh dengan PS I LOVE U so i decided to write to the cats~ :P meow meow meow~ not so romantic especially that flushing part hehe :P

Sep 6, 2009

Teringin Jugak Sbenarnya~

I sometimes forget that I'm turning 23 this year~
The only thing that makes me realize that I'm physically growing old are the children that are rapidly growing around me~
There's Nurul~


We are really close because I used to baby sit her when she was small~ Now~ she could wear my clothes~
There's Che che and Hakimi~ My beloved neice and nephew~ Last time they were so0o0o0 small.. Even their feet were not bigger than my two fingers abreast~ but now they are already tall and chatty~ and run faster than me to0~ So0o0 cute~


I still remember teaching Hakimi how to walk~ Encouraging him with clapping hands "Kimi~ Walk~" He would then stand up, clap his hands together and start to walk~ It was such a cute scene.. I think he thought that to walk you must first clap your hands hehe
Hurm~ I really don't have any teeny weeny envious feeling when seeing happy couples these days.. I think the love phobia is still on me~ But I'm so0o0 moved when seeing cute babies~ wa!!!! the maternity in me is battling to be freed I guess haha~
I said to a friend~
"Nak anak.. Tapi x mau ayah die, bole?? Nanti ayah buat hal~"
Then she said~
"Tak bole la macam tu~ Ade anak, ibu dan ayah baru complete~"
Hurm~ betol jugak~ Kesian pulak anak tu nanti kalo xde ayah~

At this age, as expected the bombardment of the killer question becomes more and more frequent~
"BILA MAU KAHWIN??"
Sometimes, I feel like saying to those who asked~
"For schematic answer, please visit www.exceladoable.blogspot.com... There are quite a number of posts that could answer your question there~"

Hurm~ I guess I'll have to wait some more~ Hehe he's out there for sure :P malu la pulak buat statement begini! (*^^)
With friends marrying here and there and the baby-boom, this particular area of life can be worrisome when you don't have anybody in mind (or do I? haha ingin menimbulkan spekulasi di situ~) hahaha
"When you found that special someone~ feel your whole life has barely begun.. you can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone~ Allah knows~" lalalala~
Hasil tangan gg, mommy, che che and kimi~ hee :D
"THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL! PANDAI!" che che and kimi~