The Last Lecture

Happy Birthday to ME~ Hehe

Guess what did I pick for my birthday present?? It's an inspirational book entitled "The Last Lecture"

Well... I came to know about the book months ago when I was searching for articles to read in the internet.. And fortunately a few days ago I saw it here in Labuan. You just can't imagine how ecstatic I was that I immediately ran to get my mommy and asked her to buy it for me as a birthday present.. In a few minutes, the book was safely kept in a plastic bag held tightly in my hand :) so0o0o0 HAPPY...

So what is it about this book that attract me so0o0o0 much..? Well, I consider the author is one of the concrete reason to love this book :) The book is written by Randy Pausch who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.. He was one brave man who'd opted the most agonizing treatment to keep himself alive for as long as he could.. Can you imagine that.. He chose to endure all the pain and discomfort just to have more time with the people he love... WOW! He several times repeat...

"Time is all that you have. You may have less than you think"

This guy got his own way to inspire others... The whole story was well-plotted and well-delivered. He started it off with how he'd reached his childhood dreams.. Followed by how he'd helped others to reach their dreams and then finally the lessons he'd learnt throughout 47 years of living... This guy is one strong man who chose to response optimistically towards what he had to deal with.. He did not choose to grieve but chose to spend his remaining time to prepare his family for his "departure" ... He wanted to have his legacy...

So I would love to quote some phrases and also tell you some parts that seem to give a lot of meaning to me... Hurm.. Lets check them out...

"When you're screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore, that means they've given up on you... You may not want to hear it, but your critics are often the ones telling you they still love you and care about you, and want to make you better.."

Lessons Learnt...

1. Earnest is better than Hip.. -->> Translation-->> Ikhlas is better than willing to do something... They are a lot of people who are willing to do the things we ask them to.. But ikhlas... That's just rare these days...

Can you distiguish them..? Hurm... *Ponder*

2. Dream Big... Well.. there are people who accomplished their impossible dreams right?? So why don't we just step out from "being realistic" when it comes about dreams???? Pausch reached almost all of his childhood dreams.. Why?? Because he badly wanted them..

3. Don't complain.. Just work harder... Hurm this one will be an uphill climb for someone like me who like to bersantai2.. Adoi...

4. Look for the best in everybody.. "If you wait long enough,people will surprise you and impress you.. When you're frustrated with people when they've made you angry,it just may be because you haven't given them enough time.. But in the end.. People will show you their good side.. Just keep waiting it will come.."

5. Help others...

6. Show gratitude...

7. What you have is what you bring with you...

8. Sometimes it is worthy to consider others' happiness.. Because when we make others happy, the happiness within us will spark magically...

There are just too many.. Hehe just borrow it from me if you are curious to know the rest of it...

This book reminds me of Mitch Albom's writing "Tuesdays with Morrie".. Almost similar.. The lesson of life from those who are near to their demise...

At this rate.. Both individuals showed the things that really matters in life in their point of view when their time is almost over.. Both were fighters in the battle to live longer and I'm very awed by their inner strength....

As you browse through the pages... You'll definitely realize how everything seem to meet all the divine teachings that we receive as Muslims.. These men were meeting with what we call as fitrah but they did not find Islam.. We have it all in our perfect religion.. But so little of us realize it.. If we do realize what really matters like these men did... We surely will meet with ultimate triumph insyaAllah.. There are always rooms to improve.. What really matter is to make "today" be the best everyday...

Randy Pausch passed away on July 2008.. He surely left a legacy..

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The shocking news....

Mami and I were on our way home from Anjung Ketam after dinner with Ucu and his family when I caught a glimpse of my babysitter's house...

"Mami.. Lama nya kita nda lawat aunty..."

"Owh.. I think they're not here anymore.. Uncle was sent to jail.."

"What???!!!! So they've reached the verdict on his case??? Did he declare himself guilty or did they find him guilty??"

"I'm not very sure.. Tapi.. the last time I heard about him.. Dia sudah kena tangkap.."

"Owh.. I don't believe it... It can't be... I mean.. He's a good man kan... It's like.. Mustahil la..."

"Hurm.. This is the real world dik... Macam-macam.. He's a good man.. That's very true.. Tp.. Kita kena ingat janji syaitan mau sesatkan anak -anak Adam... Dengan apa cara sekalipun, syaitan akan cuba sesatkan kita... Benda ni nda mustahil... A person can do it for many reasons... It could also happen to us someday.... Nauzubillah"

"Yup.. Hurm.. Scary.. I hope they're okay.. Kesiannya aunty and their sons..."

"That's why la adik.. Kena selalu doa minta Allah selalu lindungi kita.. Dunia ni macam-macam... Duit ni lagi la memang senjata syaitan.. Dalam apa kita buat kena ikhlas dan jujur... Dua-dua ni kena ada sama-sama baru la berkat..."

"Ikhlas.. Jujur.. Hurm.. Yeah.. There's just a lot of people yang nda jujur skarang... Is it that hard to be honest??? Geram lak adik"

"Ntahla adik.. Kadang-kadang orang dishonest ni sebab dia takut dia yang kena tindas if they are honest... Kadang-kadang sebab selfish... Kadang-kadang sebab cari jalan mudah.. Kadang-kadang maybe sebab dia terdesak.. That's why I said... People do it for so many reasons... Tp it's best kalo kita avoid it.. Sebab bila kita start to be dishonest, we'll continue to be like that"

"Yeah... It's like that thing is embedded in us and continue to run in our veins.. Jadi darah daging.."

And our conversation continued.. I thought about it again that night before going to bed.. A lot of questions appeared in my mind...

Why...??? Didn't he think about the consequences...??? Didn't he think that he 'll be caught...??? Didn't he think about the future of his children...??? Maybe he did but the urge to do it was much much stronger.. The persisitent devil's whisper... Jahat betol la syaitan... kacian uncle tau...

Mami said she's going to ask Babah to locate the jail in which uncle is placed.. Maybe we can pay him a visit one day.. Mom said it is important to give them our support because at the time of test.. (Especially like this one.. It's really big) they need a lot of support to keep them strong.. The most powerful tool is actually our DOA mami said...

Mami also said we should not stigmatize uncle for the things he'd done. That was his past and it is hoped that he'd learnt his lesson... We should treat him normally, and if we can, we should advice him in a way that he'll not get too offended....

And then I thought about takdir... Sometimes people blame takdir to cover their mistakes..

"Sume ni takdir.."

But to me that is not the reason why Allah plot the takdir...

Yeah.. It is takdir.. The takdir from which we should learn from.. To see how we were and to allow us to correct and to improve ourselves.. To accept our mistakes and go for the beter in the future... And not to repeat the same thing again.. If we put takdir as the thing to blame, we'll never realize what we've done wrong...

May Allah give the strength to Aunty, Uncle and their children... Whether it is true or not, I hope they can go through this...

"Allah sedang berbicara kepadamu tentang IKHLAS dan SABAR. IKHLAS dan SABAR itu Islam"

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Bila Haziah Jd Pengawas....

Last night I was browsing through SMSL friendster group and one topic caught my eye..

SIAPAKAH PENGAWAS YANG PALING KAMU NDA SUKA???

Hehe I was afraid if I'm listed by any of the members.. Luckily only 1 name is mentioned so far.. Lucky me.. Hehe was I a bad prefect??? I dunno.. Hehehe but I'm very sure I was the one with lots of ideas during the orientation week hahaha this is an entry from a friend's blog.. Enjoy...

sangat cliche, setiap kali minggu suaikenal, mesti budak baru akan dibuli oleh senior untuk mengumpul tandatangan. berikut ialah di antara 5 perkara-perkara bodoh yang berlaku semasa minggu suaikenal yang masih aku ingat :


*budak tuyu disuruh meniup kipas eletrik sehingga berputar sebelum dikurniakan tandatangan.


*kak haziah menyuruh seorang budak tuyu untuk mengulang dan menjerit sehingga semua aspuri dengar ayat yang dia sebut.

kak haziah lebih cute daripada kak zeq. abang *****suka kak haziah, bukan kak zeq. *bulang. dan budak tuyu menurut perintah. jangan ulang perkataan bulang! budak tuyu mengulang lagi.
aku hanya mampu ketawa memerhatikan rancangan jahat haziah yang tidak berjalan dengan sempurna.


cikgu sejarah tingkatan 5 sangat cerewet. dia mahu kami memadam semua bekas garisan yang pernah digaris di dalam buku teks oleh batch sebelum kami. dan dia akan memeriksa sama ada kami telah melaksanakan arahannya atau tidak. maka malam hujung minggu itu, ramailah budak tuyu kelihatan memegang buku sejarah tingkatan 5 dan getah pemadam di sepanjang koridor-koridor aspuri .


seorang budak tuyu telah dijanjikan tandatangan sekiranya setiap kali sebelum prep petang dan selepas beriadah dia membuat pengumuman ini :

perhatian kepada semua aspuri, jumlah under**** pada jam _____ ini ialah sebanyak ____ helai dan jumpah br* pulak ialah _____helai. sekian terima kasih.


aku ialah kakak yang paling tidak kejam. untuk mendapatkan tandatangan aku sangat senang. hanya perlu datang dengan 100 salinan ayat ini : KAK ZEQ CUTE DAN CANTIK. dan aku rasa ia sangat berkesan kerana, sehingga ke saat ini, budak-budak tuyu yang tanpa aku sangka-sangka baru sahaja selesai menduduki SPM menjejaki aku di friendster dan masih lagi memanggil aku kak zeq cute. hahah. silalah jeles.


*bulang = cakap/ulang dalam dialek kedayan.
* tuyu orang yang blur sebab baru datang ke tampat baru, dialek kedayan juga.


Actually... The 'announcement' was my idea too... Hehe we called those who were assigned with the 'announcement' as "adk sp****r".. So whenever we talk about this, my friends would ask..

"Eh.. Mana suda adk sp****r ko haziah???"

Hehehe you know what crossed my mind??? I was thinking...

"Ntah2 dak2 tue pon panggil aku kakak sp****r..." hehehe

O ya zeq.. Aku tesasul ba tuh bulang tuh.. aku mo ckp bah ulang!!!! hehehe there's no such word pon dlm kedayan hehehe

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