Nov 8, 2008

I AM LUCKY

I hate the word "life sucks"


I am saddened with the fact that there are people who are physically perfect and mentally sane but wish not to wake up tommorrow...


And here's the reason why.....



1. Allah promised to us he will only test us with something that we can manage, we can cope and deal with.. Whatever it is that we are facing, when we start to ask "Why does this happen to me?" the answer is simple



"It's because you can."



2. Life is never sucks.. Life have a lot to offer.. It's only sucks when you have not yet found your purpose.. It's only sucks when you have not yet discovered your role and what you have to offer to other beings... Take time to look... Then you will see...





3. You thought no one cared... But actually they are so many without you even realizing it... At least one person will definitely care and be affected if you are gone.. It's dear mommy... Who brought you to this world...
4. There are always others who are facing greater ordeals than us... To sigh is normal because it is inevitably depressing when we are tested with something.. But to give up.. That is totally wrong...



Sometimes when we are sitting in a comfort zone, we are blinded with what we don't have and ignored what we already have...

Just be grateful.. It makes our life much much more content..

And we will wish to always wake up...

Nov 6, 2008

Moving forward...

1st November 2008 was one of the most dreadful day in my life... The guy I loved, the guy I trusted betrayed me... He betrayed me for so long but I was too blind to see... Thank you Allah for showing me the truth...


I want to put eveything behind me.. I don't want to remember all the bad things he did to me.. I only want to remmeber the part where he had made me happy.. I only want to remember the part where we struggled together going through our greatest ordeal ever, the motocycle accident...


What made him change? I dont know... He just totally change... I remember the last time I saw him being himself. Exactly a year after the accident, 2 Decemcer 2007.. I was gloomy that day.. I was not sure why.. I had an instinct something bad was about to happen... He noticed my perculiar mood. I've always been happy and talkative but that day it was just so different.. I was waiting for the bus to Kuantan... Before I boarded the bus, he look at me in the eye and said

"saye sayang awk" 3 times...


I look him rode his motorcycle home.. That was the last time I saw MY zul... The rest of it were memories that I rather erased...


Now I'm alone.. Im single.. I'm going to move forward.. I want to remember him the way I want.. I loved him once for who he was... I pray to Allah may he realize his mistakes.. May he be himself again.. May he be happy with what he had chosen... :)


In a way I'm so grateful.. No more lies.. No more cries.. All my questions are already answered.. Thank you Allah... Thank you for not making me the one who destroy this precious relationship :)


Thank you mom.... Thank you friends.... Thank you mak zul for the suports... I needed it and I appreciate it so much.. I gained my strength.. I did my best for him... So I don't regret leaving him since I've given my very best when it is him who was not grateful for getting the best...


GO GO CAIYOK!!!!!
muke penat sket br balek exam hehe

Nov 5, 2008

The guyssssss who stole my HEART...

Wentworth Miller... Stunning and mysterious.. My ideal kind of guy hehehe his blue eyes is definitely a priceless asset!!!!!


Shah Rukh Khan
... My all-time favourite.. Honestly his face is not so much of a hunk.. But it's his STYLE that captivate the Vunusians...


Matsumoto Jun.. Well.. To me from the outside he looks ordinary.. But when I saw him acting.. Wow!!!! He got personality!!! He reminds me of one guy in school. Not so handsome but every girl seem to like him..




David Villa... I only fell for him when he's on the field.. Hehehe So agile.. So focus..




Wawawa Lee dong wook!!! He is soooooooo my taste! hehehe tall and handsome..

Won Bin.. SOOOOOOO GORGEOUS


They stole my heart.. Unfortunately I didn't steal theirs.. Hahaha