Anyway.. How come I'm traveling alone right now... Loooooong story....... Lets just make it short
Well, it was decided that we would have our first trip at 1/4 of the year because we know all tension would've piled up by then.. Opted Boracay as our destination since it's cheap and we are going to do a much much more expensive trip in the middle of the year. But then came the SS (who almost ruined my Mabul holiday) into the picture.. And he successfully wrecked our Boracay vacation because the government may not be in the SS side but it seems most of the public are saying SS intrusion was some act of valor (-_-") Tulung lah~
So, our tickets was on the evening of the 20th and since it was all ruined, we still haven't decide where to go by 17th... We were twisting and turning on our bed in a hotel in Bangi. Browsing the internet for tickets and flipping heaps of brochures that we got from MATTA fair.. And when I finally got to KK that night (17th), I finally decided I should go to Prague..It was like a calling.. "Haziah, PRAGUE!" I don't mind being delusional when it comes to traveling hikhik
So voilla! I bought the tickets yaw! Not so cheap though. But it could've been more expensive...
What I missed....
Well... This solo travel was of course by Allah's will and it never occur to me that I would do something like this this year.. As early as March.. We can never foretell what's His next plan for us and that was how I can't foretell the passing of my beloved aunt while I was on my way to Prague. She was sick alright. It was so acute that her condition deteriorate within 2 weeks. A newly diagnosed cancer but it was too late. It spread to the spleen, uterine and liver and the origin was not known.. The liver damage complicates her condition.. Enlarged liver and her skin turned yellow...
When I first came to visit, she was still conscious but in pain. That lasted for a few days. The last time I talked to her was when Mom came over all the way from Labuan to visit.. Then I went off to KL for a friend's wedding and on Tuesday, when all the family members were called for counseling, I was there, and she was delirious. I've never seen her like that.. I've one uncle who had stroke last year and I just can't watch him like that.. It feels different when watching a mere stranger lying on the bed, immobilized or delirious as to watching someone you've known quite well when he or she was in good health.. It feels different... and in both occasions, I wept. I just can't handle it.. Too much emotions came rushing in.. Too much memories..
This is important because my dear cousin was waiting for her result to come out.. This is like something that the family have longed for for the past few months since our trip to Indonesia. Our family is too small so we get really excited even when there's small events (like I'm excited about my niece first 200 m sprint in MSSWPL this April and I'm gonna be there to watch her run! \(^^)/) So.. My cousin scored well, 7A and 2 B. Not straight A's but still that's excellent enough. Mom said my cousin is a little bit upset with her result because she wanted to get straight A (like most people do)
But Nuyui (because she sometimes stalk my blog), I can't deny scoring straight A's in SPM was one of the most memorable thing in my life because I got what I wanted but then as you grow, you'll find that finishing school with exceptional grades is just a beginning. The path that I walked after that gets harder and harder and you can trip at any point as you pace. Stay focus on things that really matters, pray for Allah's guidance and assistance.. inshaAllah everything will work out just fine no matter how hard it is (^^)/ Yosh! Like what my friends always remind me of.. Success and Happiness matters but they mean nothing without Allah's blessing..
It's more than AWESOMENESS
I can't deny that I did feel lonely at times as I travel alone.. But I learnt a lot.. I learnt about myself too.. Traveling is more than spending money and taking cool pics.. More than laying your eyes on awesome ancient buildings and relics and extremely good looking Caucasian. It's education..
I love going to places with historical values.. Watch nature's diversity... And observe how other countries function as a nation.. Memang aku nerdy sikit bila travel but that what's traveling is all about to me.. To observe and think~ And realize that one is just a small part of this complex world who can actually make a difference.. chewah! but really I do believe so..
Hurm sooo aku aim 20 countries before I get married.. So I think I've just completed 50% of the target.. Hoo-Ah! \(^^)/
Muka excited lepas nampak deer and rabbits on a train from Salzburg to Prague (^^)